Thursday, April 28, 2011


I was recently cleaning out my gmail and looking at old e-mails from friends, ex-boyfriends, etc. I decided to read a handful of them. It's weird how different my life is today. I am so much happier.

Some of them were written to someone about my experience being laid off and how awful I felt and how I was "lower than low ... no, lower than that even." Reading them brought back the panic feeling of "what am I going to do?" In the e-mail I said, "I don't have anything to get up for on Monday because I have no job." It was definitely one of the worst periods in my life.

But now I feel so much more successful. It was almost a month after I wrote that e-mail that I got the job I have now. I've been here 2.5 years. I feel I'm ready to move on from it, for many, many reasons, but I am taking things one step at a time. I have learned so much here...I've made friends who, now, I couldn't imagine my life without. And my writing and photography have improved so much.

I really am proud of myself, looking back on what I have accomplished these past 2.5 years. And it's exhilarating to think of what is in store for me. I feel some very good things are going to be happening very soon. It's just a very funny little feeling that I haven't been able to shake since spring officially sprung. It's just like I woke up one morning, could hear the birds outside my window, saw the love of my life smiling at me and knew God has me on the right path. There will be ups and downs no doubt but I am ready to take them all head on.

I am refreshed and ready for the world.

I will definitely keep you all posted.


So in love...

Kevin wrote me an e-mail and it's just so, so lovely. :)

"I love...
... that you can't fall asleep without a movie playing.
... that you make me nervous and excited at the same time, the same as on our first date.
... when I'm having a bad day that just thinking of you makes it better.
... how your smile can light up the darkest room.
... how you kiss me. It makes my heart race every single time.
... when you reach out and grab my hand.
... how when you touch me, chills shoot through my body from head to toe.
... that you think I'm handsome especially on the days when I feel terrible.
... that you love all the same nerdy stuff that I do.
... the way you call me "babe." It makes me laugh and feel warm and fuzzy at the same time
... how I don't think I could love you more or how you could be more beautiful, but you prove me wrong every day.
... how I can barely wipe the smile off of my face when I'm around you.
... that you never leave my thoughts.
... seeing your face first thing in the morning.
... the amazing things you say about me.
... that you may have seen Star Wars more times than me.

Those are just a few of many. I love you, Ashlee."

I am the luckiest girl ... ever!!!

Friday, April 15, 2011

Birthday fun!

I am a big fan of birthdays ... not only my own (I really don't like getting older but the attention is fun one day out of the year) but others around me.

Kevin just had his birthday yesterday (happy birthday again, honey!) and it was just so fun. I baked him this awesome cake ...

He absolutely loved it. Granted, I'm not the cake decorating master by any means! Compared to the picture I looked off of, it's really not that great but I used regular frosting and not fondant - since that is way more difficult to use! So considering that ... it's not too bad! But maybe someday I will become a master at cake decorating ... like when I have kids! ;)