Friday, October 19, 2012

Being left out really sucks.


I always thought I was a nice person in high school. I never made fun of anyone – especially the people normally targeted.

I had some moments with the girls in the grade below me who were conniving, manipulative, devious and just plain mean people. But that’s really only because I don’t take well to people treating other people like crap just because they think they’re better than everyone. That’s just not right.

But sometimes, for reasons still unknown to me, I wasn’t liked by a lot of girls. Maybe it’s because I was pretty. Or because I played sports. Or because I got good grades (because I worked hard to get those good grades). I tried to be honest, friendly and kind. I didn’t do anything illegal and I was considered the “goody-good” by just about everyone – to my chagrin.

And it seems, right after high school, the girlfriends I did have in high school would always do stuff but not invite me. Which just vexed me. And…still to this day…just about 10 years later, I am still being left out of stuff.

I loved and still love all those girls. I always want to be a part of stuff they do. But I am never invited. I am never thought of. And I just don’t know why.

Oh well. I guess life goes on. I know I should just try and ignore it. But it’s hard. I have one good girlfriend – but even she has grown too busy for me with being a mom, getting ready to have another baby, having a boyfriend and dealing with the most ridiculously crazy job I’ve ever heard of.

I’m just being whiny right now…I know. I could invite myself to some things – but that’s not really my style. I just need to take a deep breath and realize that people and relationships change. There's nothing I can do about it. I just have to hold my head up high and realize I have a lot of great guy friends who invite me to stuff – and I have my family and – the most important person to me – my husband. He’s everything I need (well, besides God above) and as long as I have him, I think I’ll be okay. :)

Friday, October 5, 2012

28

Holy crap everyone.

So I'm 28.

That kind of sucks. My birthday was Wednesday. I'm getting old!

I might be getting old but at least I feel more accomplished than I did a year ago. Got married, got a new job. I feel like an adult....which, is a good thing? Maybe?

I dunno.

Babies are next. That is all.

XOXO,
MJ

Friday night

It's Friday night. I'm babysitting. Kids are in bed, house is clean and I'm currently sitting on their couch watching Captain America.

I feel like a teenager.

Babysitting is awesome tho. I love these kids to death - they're at such a fun, inquisitive age. Roe can actually sing the entire song of his favorite TV show. What a doll.

And the pay isn't bad. ;)

Oh and I love this movie. Out of the Avengers, I'd have to say Captain America is probably my favorite. He's such a gentleman...and yet a total bada**. If I were a damsel in distress, I'd want him rescuing me for sure.

Or maybe Iron Man. I mean, it's Tony Stark. What more do I gotta say there?

Anyway...enough of the nerdy girl rant. I'm gonna get back to my movie, whilst keeping an ear open for any screaming babes.